I have that wish right now. It’s a feeling of extreme frustration. Stuckness. Loss of value because of the many needs from others that I can’t satisfy. Needs that I feel responsibility towards. These needs are important to those “others”. And I should be able to deliver on them. Yet I can’t.
No, I’m not suicidal- just in case your mind goes off-leash. Let’s just get this one out of the way.
I feel responsible for my parents, my family, and my work. These are the immediate responsibilities that I care about the most. The order of these three is problematic. When there’s a pull from one of these three angles of the triangle, which one gets priority while the others have to wait? That’s the cause of frustration. It saddens me that an angle or two aren’t happy. I’m an achiever. I’m a good person. I can’t live with not being able to satisfy my priorities. All of them. And I just can’t satisfy all of them all the time.
Wael
12/14/2019
It's OK to be frustrated and feel burnt out.. And admitting that you are is really a good step and knowing the reasons is even better.
ReplyDeleteI think what you feel is nothing more from a sign that you should give yourself a break from all these responsibilities as they all are not avoidable and important so take a break and come again stronger.
And yes you are an excellent person and a really top achiever so cheer for these achievements and reward yourself.
Finally I'm sure that your parents and your entire family are proud of you and you are an icon of success to them.